aprati's Journal

Cleansing Cleaning day
The most interesting of days:

My day started off as a day of chores. Clean the house, take care of baby, do laundry, steam clean carpets and leave some fun stuff to do tomorrow. Like clean bedroom, bathrooms, windows, etc. So boring really.

Then the phone rings and I get the call I didn't think I would get(although I had been hoping for it), which led to meeting my sister for the first time. It was very insightful and revealing. I was pleased by this most interesting interaction.

From Sister-in-law to Sister. I have always desired to be closer to you and I finally feel that we have a true connection. I have been waiting a very long time for the moment when the walls would come down and you would open up to me and trust me enough to be vulnerable.

I am thrilled that you gave me 80% access to the world and mind's eye of who you are and who you are trying to figure out. I say 80% just as a random number. I don't know the depths of how much really revealed to me today, but I see it a high number. I'm saying 80% as a good thing and kind of hoping there is more to be shared.

To be honest I have always felt on the outside of the women in our family. Don't misunderstand that. I do love all of you and feel loved in return. However, I come from a different cultural background, believes and up bringing. I just found it difficult to say that I had a friendship.

I didn't want to push or hover so that it would happen naturally. I felt so many times that we were on the brink of a breakthrough but then we would fall backwards. I hope that you feel that you can come to me with anything now and I hope that I have gained your trust.

There really isn't much you could tell me that would shock me or freak me out. So I guess what I'm trying to say is that I hope today was the beginning of a true sisterhood between us.

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